I've kissed a lot of frogs, so where's my prince?

So another girl I went to school with is engaged. I saw it on Facebook yesterday, and another little piece of me died on the inside. Okay, so that's really dramatic and not all that accurate, but it did bum me out a little bit. She's three years younger than me, my brother's age, so in my eyes, she's practically a baby!

Since graduating, I've already been invited to three weddings, all girls that were in my class. I'm happy for them. I really am! But as the wedding invitations stack up, I can't help but wonder when and if it will ever be my turn. Growing up, I vowed to never get married. Boys were icky and relationships were messy. When I was little, I never played house, I hated dolls, and if you bought me a Ken doll or any of the Barbie children, I would throw them in the bottom of my toy chest and never touch them. To be honest, I haven't changed much from that Ken hating child. Boys can still be icky, and relationships can still be messy. I'm still unsure on if I ever want to get married, or if marriage is even cut out for me. Several guys have come and gone, but I've never even had a serious boyfriend! After a particular bad date or another failed relationship, I find myself asking myself "what's wrong with me?"

And the answer is nothing. Nothing is wrong with me.

I'm just single. It's not a death sentence nor does it mean I need to go ahead and subscribe to Modern Cat magazine. I don't even like cats! Being single doesn't define me, like being married doesn't define a person. It's just your relationship status. That's it. I'm not single because I'm too picky. I'm not single because I'm too tall. I'm not single because I live at home with my mom. I'm not single because I wear makeup to the grocery store. I'm not single because I'm not a huge fan of nature. I'm not single because I'm too quiet. I'm not single because I'm a horrible driver. I'm not single because I wouldn't sleep with that guy after the fifth date. I'm not single because I kissed that guy when I was drunk at the bar.

I'm not single for all of the bs reasons people like to throw at me. I'm single because I haven't found my person yet. I haven't found the guy who thinks the sun is shining out of my ass even when I'm having a horrible day. I haven't found the man that will make me want to become a better woman. We haven't found each other yet. It's as simple as that.

And I'm not going to look for him. What is it that people say? You always find things when you stop searching for them? So until that time comes, I'm single, and I'm okay with that.